Usually I don’t ask anything from him except for his love and time.
He laughs and says it is easier to give, if you ask for some material possession than time and love. And our love fights follows.....
One day I was coming back from office. I wanted to buy some groceries, so I went to Gandhi bazaar. I was walking on the street and suddenly saw someone who looked like hubby. I stopped and wanted to take a closer look so I went towards him and yes !!!
Its hubby standing in front of jewellery shop !!!!
I was actually thinking of investing in Gold. I didn’t want to buy gold coins instead I thought I will buy jewellery so that it will be an investment as well as I can wear it :-) I discussed the same with hubby, but he was not very much sure, he just said lets think about it. Then we became very busy with other work.
Beaming with happiness I approached towards hubby.
But some girl came to my hubby and she was showing him something.
She looked very happy. Hubby taking that in his hand kissed her on her cheeks.
When I reached him I heard him saying, “it really looks beautiful on you honey !!!”
I felt as if the whole world had come to a stand still....
His words were echoing in my ears. With tremendous shock and fear I tapped him on his back.
He looked at me and was dumbfounded. The girl was holding his hands looked happier with him. Hubby introduced her to me as his girl friend.
I didn’t know what to do... I always had a doubt. I had seen her msgs in his mobile. But I never asked him. I trusted him a lot. My trust is broken and my heart.
With eyes filled with tears I looked at him, my voice was stuck and I was unable to talk. With lot of difficulty I whispered,
“ I knew it !!!”
I asked him,
“This is the girl who used to send msgs to you?”
Thinking for few seconds he replied,
“Oh !! no... That’s another girl”
He made that statement as if having two three girlfriends after your marriage is very normal and natural.
There was no guilt. No hiding. No confusion. No stammer.
His voice was clear and firm.
This was the most unexpected thing to happen in ones life, and I was so unprepared to face it, tell me who will be expecting such things in their lives???
But it happened and it happened to me.
I could not control my emotions...
I cursed finding myself in such situation...
I cursed myself for going to Gandhi bazaar that day....
I was living happily in the world of lies, than in this truth and uncertainty.
I found myself alone in that crowded place...
I cried ... I cried until my energy was drained......
I could not measure how painful it was...
Is this what they call ‘death’???
I was crying aloud .. I was begging god to give me my husband back...
I loved him so much ....
I trusted him... he is my life ... he is my present and he is my future.....
“God please don’t take him away from me I cannot live without him !!!”
I cried .... My eyes are heavy with tears ....
Hubby is consoling me.
I am unable to see him...
I am forcing myself to see him...
I want to see him and I just want a glimpse....
I want to hug him and tell him, how much I love him...
I want to tell him, how much I need him....
He is so confused...
He is holding me in his arms
He is asking me to stop crying...
He is asking me to open my eyes....
With great efforts I finally opened my eyes with tears rolling over my cheeks.
Bed lamp was on, otherwise it was dark.
I tried to recollect what had happened.
I started to laugh.....
Hubby was much more puzzled. He went on questioning what had happened to me.
Poor guy.. I didn’t know whether to tell him or not.
I definitely knew he would feel bad..
How could I even imagine such things...
Finally I told him about my dream.
Now this was his turn to cry ... “God please save me from this female !!!!”
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
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4 comments:
u have pulled it long enough that I was curious to what exactly happend... thought of going to the end immediately breaking from the middle. but then thought let me read completely
long enough to create curiosity.. short enough not to prolong that curiosity... :)
:)
haha... good one ! :)
Thx maddy :)
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